Not At All [English translation]

A pessimist's mind is a hundred percent paranoid

Now it's time to blame myself again

The basement I live is the most cold and beautiful place

I'm thankful and hurtful, and too regretful to my dad

Even though a month has passed since I've last seen my family

I don't really want to see them, sorry

I feel like I'll collapse if I just go in front of them

I don't even know what their new house looks like, sorry

If they ask if I've gotten a bit better, my answer is 'Not at all'

The sun rises and I cry for hours, when I open my eyes it's night again

They say that being busy is good, but I don't know if that's true

I'm disgusted for even thinking about that so much

I'll earn enough that my mom won't have to work at the convenience store

Mom, I'll buy you a house you like in the countryside

Would I be able to keep this promise? I don't have confidence that I can

I have to keep this promise, even if I'm not confident I can

Look at Vinxen over there, why's he saying his life's so hard

It's all for his concept, we have to strip it all away

If you're talking like that, wanna explain the scars on my right wrist

That day was the worst, the spilled beauty cake

That stage that didn't even have five people watching

I still remember how happy I was on that stage

That won't happen again, Mingyu, just trust and follow your older brother

Even though I'm unhappy, I have to make my family happy, right

I was born to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all

It's my way of thinking that's the problem

I was meant to be happy, Not at all

I'm feeling unhappy, that's the problem

I was meant to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all

It's my way of thinking, that's the problem

I was meant to be happy, Not at all

I'm feeling unhappy that's the problem

Hey you, you're gotten pretty famous now

Everyone's talking about you at school now

It must've been hard getting to here, but now you're popular

Since you're gonna be earning a lot of money, be happy now

Nope, not at all, shh

Maybe I'm saying this now I'm full, but I'm still the same

The only different things is the way you look at me, It hasn't changed at all

I look happier than I was before, don't I, Not at all

Hey, don't even say that kind of thing

The singers that you used to sing along with at karaoke are close with you now

Now what kind of person would insult you now

So don't pretend like you're unhappy

Sorry, but I was always that kind of guy

The flower you think is beautiful is just poison to me

Don't push me, I'm doing the best that I can to hold on

They say I'm just doing this for a concept and to just let it go

Yeah, everything's still the same, even the pain

The end of the day is far, I'm thinking about if I should just go home

I'm reading books that people say are good now, people are jealous of me

But they don't know that this is my way to escape from reality

If I went out on TV like this, psychopathic

I thought I would be a little less embarrassed, not at all, just the opposite

You've tasted riches, you should be happy now

Wait a second, who should be the one thinking this is unfair here?

It's all a contradiction, people say money and fame isn't everything in life

Vinxen, whether your own money or get completely screwed over, it's the same

Because people here judge the measure of your unhappiness

My eyes are heavy, today's judgement: not bad, other worlds are so much better

Look at Vinxen over there, why's he saying his life's so hard

It's all for his concept, we have to strip it all away

If you're talking like that, wanna explain the scars on my right wrist

That day was the worst, the spilled beauty cake

That stage that didn't even have five people watching

I still remember how happy I was on that stage

That won't happen again, Mingyu, just trust and follow your older brother

Even though I'm unhappy, I have to make my family happy, right

I was born to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all

It's my way of thinking that's the problem

I was meant to be happy, Not at all

I'm feeling unhappy, that's the problem

I was meant to be an unhappy bastard, Not at all

It's my way of thinking, that's the problem

I was meant to be happy, Not at all

I'm feeling unhappy that's the problem

• Artist:Vinxen