Hekayəm [English translation]

December, 2003, the time of getting acquainted with each other

Our eyes are looking for to find familiarity on each other

A little weak-spiritedness and probably a little childishness.

The first days I controlled myself only by looking.

The sent letter, will there be a reply to?

I thought how to write so that you would love me immediately

But that time I could not write as well-rounded as now at all

Poor you, how could you know that when I grew up, I would be a loafer

Childhood, sweet days, they are spent in this way

They were decorating everything with such the smallest quarrels

Holidays, expecting and a pile of gifts

Every time when being late, you and the fear to lose you

The first love confession… I still remember it like yesterday

You responded late, probably you thought I would bear

Wish you knew how much I would like to stand like that with you again

By the way, the boulevard was not so beautiful as it is now

Verse:

You left again, I stayed alone again

Today I composed my last song about my love to you

I would love you eternally if there was no death

But eternity does not guarantee happiness

I would not know the world if I did not have a birthday

Every second that life has given me is a deposit

November, 2006, it was remembered all life time

The mistake made with the pretext to perceive life

We got far away from each other like a melting iceberg

It gave promise not to break up when we reconcile.

That period I got creativity inside

Coming together with friends, a house, rap and HOST appeared

The problems started to come out, the reason was your accepting it bad

I remember your coming to the stage taking me by the hand at YUG*

Some words are familiar to you in one HOST-man’s life

21 February, 2009, cold winter

When everybody was listening quietly with the lust to hear a new song

I noticed from far away, an applause came with a tear

Verse:

You left again, I stayed alone again

Today I composed my last song about my love to you

Many do not know how many of my tracks are devoted to you

They do not know then who AiD belonged to either

Sometimes I do not forgive that step of yours

The letters you threw away belonged to our childhood

As time passed, relationship got more serious

Mentality got between us, everything got simplier

But I loved you very much as well because

You could distinguish the meaningful from the meaningless

We got to 2010 together, with that morning full of love

As soon as I remember, my inside gets filled with sorrow

Why didn’t every second of ours pass like that?

Why my tongue gets filled with poison as I grow up?!

Your mercy hid your deserved coldness

I thought if we stayed apart, your love would get more to me

But the plane taking you far away

Probably it is the only reason for the current conversation of ours.

Maybe this is a ritual, to write about separation

After all, there are many people breathing with sucH kind of songs

Wipe away your tears, I don’t want to spoil your mood

There are many people who get inspired by your laughter

I have no ship called “you” in the ocean of love any longer

You should know, my love would be a memory and I do not have grief

The end of this work is not hard but very simple

Simply a girl left a soldier.

• Artist:Orxan Zeynallı (AiD)