Going Through Changes

[Chorus: Ozzy Osbourne]

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

[Verse 1: Eminem]

Lately I really feel like I'm rollin' for delf

Like Philly, feel like I'm losin' control of myself

I sincerely apologize if all that I sound like

Is I'm complainin' but life keeps on complicatin'

And I'm debatin' on leavin' this world this evenin'

Even my girls can see I'm grievin', I try and hide it

But I can't, why do I act like I'm all high and mighty

When inside I'm dyin'? I am finally realizin' I need

Help, can't do it myself, too weak

Two weeks I've been havin' ups and downs goin' through peaks

And valleys, dilly-dallyin' 'round with the idea

Of endin' this shit right here, I'm hatin' my reflection

I walk around the house tryna fight mirrors

I can't stand what I look like, yeah I look fat

But what do I care? I give a fuck

Only thing I fear's Hailie, I'm afraid if I close my eyes, that I might see her... shit

[Chorus: Ozzy Osbourne]

I'm going through changes

I'm going through changes

[Verse 2: Eminem]

I lock myself in the bedroom, bathroom, nappin' at noon

Yeah, Dad's in a bad mood, he's always snappin' at you

Marshall, what happened that you can't stop with these pills?

And you've fallen off with your skills and your own fans are laughin' at you

It become a problem you're too pussy to tackle? Get up

Be a man, stand, a real man woulda had this shit handled

Know you just had your heart ripped out and crushed

They say Proof just flipped out, homie just whipped out and bust

Nah, it ain't like Doody to do that, he wouldn't fuckin'

Shoot at nobody, he'd fight first, but dwellin'

On it only makes the night worse, now I'm poppin' Vics, Percs

And Methadone pills, "Yeah, Em, tight verse

You killed it!" Fuckin' drug dealers hang around me like yes men

And they gon' do whatever I says when I says it

It's in their best interest to protect their investment

And I just lost my fuckin' best friend, so fuck it, I guess then—

[Chorus: Eminem (& Ozzy Osbourne)]

(I'm going through changes) Don’t know what I’m gonna do

(I'm going through changes) But I just keep on going through changes

[Verse 3: Eminem & Hailie Jade]

My friends can't understand this new me, that's understandable

Man, but think how bananas you'd be, you'd be an animal too

If you were trapped in this fame and caged in it like a zoo

And everybody's lookin' at you, what you want me to do?

I'm startin' to live like a recluse

And the truth is, fame's startin' to give me an excuse

To be at an all-time low; I sit alone in my home theater

Watchin' the same damn DVD of the

First tour; the last tour, he was still alive

And it hurts so I fast forward, sleeping pills'll make me feel alright

And if I'm still awake in the middle of the night

I'll just take a couple more, yeah, you're motherfuckin' right

I ain't slowin' down for no one, I am almost homeward bound

Almost in a coma, yeah homie, come on, dole 'em out!

"Daddy, don't you die on me! Daddy, better hold your ground!"

Fuck, don't I know the sound of that voice? Yeah, baby, hold me down (Daddy!)

[Chorus: Eminem, Hailie Jade (& Ozzy Osbourne)]

(I'm going through changes) (Daddy!) Don’t know what I’m gonna do

(I'm going through changes) But I just keep on going through changes

[Verse 4: Eminem]

Wake up in the hospital, full of tubes, but somehow I'm pullin' through

Swear when I come back I'ma be bulletproof

I'ma do it just for Proof, I think I should state a few

Facts, 'cause I may not get a chance again to say the truth

Shit, it just hit me that what if I would not've made it through?

I think about the things I woulda never got to say to you

I'd never get to make it right, so here's what I came to do

Hailie, this one is for you, Whitney and Alaina too

I still love your mother, that'll never change

Think about her every day, we just could never get it together, hey

Wish there was a better way for me to say it

But I swear on everything, I'd do anything for her on any day

There are just too many things to explain, when it rains

Guess it pours — yes, it does, wish there wasn't any pain

But I can't pretend there ain't, I ain't placin' any blame

I ain't pointin' fingers, Heaven knows I've never been a saint

I know that it feels like we just pissed away our history

And just today I looked at your picture, almost if to say

I miss you subconsciously, wish it didn't end this way

But I just had to get away, don't know why, I don't know what else to say, I guess I'm—

[Chorus: Eminem (& Ozzy Osbourne)]

(I'm going through changes) Don’t know what I’m gonna do

(I'm going through changes) But I just keep on going through changes

• Artist:Eminem
• Album:Recovery (2010)