חיכיתי [Chikiti] [English translation]

I waited for him to come,

And at night I would call him, like he hasn't been here in a million years.

I waited for something new,

And in this routine everything's in prospect, the memories are blurry,

I waited for the rain,

And at war, like everyone else, I waited for the soldiers to come out,

For my mother to calm down, her heart is wet inside some pit,

If he'll get hurt, she'd be gone,

I waited for peace,

With all the clichés,

With all those people I waited for air,

I waited in the mornings,

For the alcohol to wear off,

For the batteries to die, for the ringing to stop,

I waited for Saturday/Shabbat,

I waited for an explanation over all that's important,

We almost never speak of it,

I waited for boundaries

And within this tumult I waited to grab the reins.

I waited,

Like the earth waits for water,

Like a child that screams to the heavens

And I still wait every day, every single day.

I waited in silence,

With all of my dreams, maybe because I was afraid to take the blow.

I waited like everyone else,

Maybe a bit less, I stopped taking responsibility over expectations and their pain.

I waited to change,

Even just a tiny bit, for someone, even if it's just for a few minutes.

And there's no one else, love yourself,

A person is born, goes through life and finishes alone.

I waited for forgiveness,

For all of my quirks, for impatience for progress and understanding,

For ego and whatnot,

For all the fears and the worries that I had when I haven't realized everything is just an experience.

I waited to grow,

To see if things will stay the same

Or if there'll be any changes at all,

And I'm still waiting,

Mostly I just write about it all since that's the only way I'll get softer and cleaner.

I waited,

Like the earth waits for water,

Like a child that screams to the heavens

And I still wait every day, every single day.

• Artist:Nathan Goshen