Ex-‘Big Brother’ Houseguest Luke Valentine Disagrees With Ejection, Says He Used N-Word After ‘Malnutrition’ and ‘Sleep Deprivation’

Luke Valentine, the Big Brother Season 25 houseguest who was ejected on Aug. 9 for using the N-word, is sharing his thoughts on CBS decision to send him home.

In an Instagram Live video posted on Wednesday, the illustrator weighed in on the controversy, noting that he didnt agree with the decision to eliminate him.

Im not upset at the production, Valentine, 30, said in the video. Their hands were tied. They had to make a sacrifice, I understand why. It is upsetting. I think they made the wrong decision. I think a slap on the wrist would have been a much better thing.

He went on to explain that for those who watch the clip during which, he casually says the slur while having a conversation with houseguests Cory Wurtenberger, Hisam Goueli and Jared Fields it is pretty clear that there as no malice, no ill intent behind his comments. The houseguests were informed the next day that Valentine would no longer be in the game as his actions violated the code of conduct.

It was about a week of malnutrition, a week of sleep deprivation. I was getting probably two-and-a-half hours of sleep on that cheese block, Valentine said in the video. You dont really take into account the psychological distress of being under studio lighting 24/7 and not knowing who your friends are, who your enemies are. What happened happened. Do I regret it? Obviously. But I feel like it happened for a reason.

He then claimed he was held in a room for seven hours to speak to human resources before being informed he was disqualified.

They told me, Due to you violating the code of conduct, we have to expel you from the house. It was like someone reached into my chest and just squeezed my heart. It was the most draining feeling in the world. This experience, which I was really having a blast with, was just over, over something like that, he said. It was a total bummer. I was sobbing. I was really bummed. And you can say it was deserved, but I mean, I dont know what to tell you. Theres two kinds of people: the people who think I should be drawn and quartered, and the people who say, He made a mistake, but the punishment didnt fit the crime. And Im thankful for those people.

Before ending the video, the ex-contestant said that he feels the Season 25 cast kind of have to hate me after what happened, so hes wary about keeping in touch. Apparently, Im radioactive Ultimately, Ive seen where this kind of thing goes, and if Im too radioactive for them, I get it.