Suspend my Disbelief/I Had a Life lyrics

MOLLY:

If there’s anything left I can do

To convince myself it could be true

It’s up to me to suspend my disbelief.

If there’s even one thing left to try,

I don’t even need to know why.

It’s just relief to suspend my disbelief.

How can it be? It must be true.

This thing I feel, I know it’s you.

It’s a chance in a million I know,

But I’ll take it before I let go

And admit defeat, I’ll suspend my disbelief.

How could she know? It must be real!

I know it’s you, I know how it feels.

Suspend my disbelief.

CARL (spoken):

How can you believe some fortune teller from Spanish Harlem who shows up at your door?

MOLLY (spoken):

I sat there and watched, she was talking to him.

CARL (spoken):

I don’t buy it, Moll. Not for a minute.

MOLLY (spoken):

Carl, she knew things. I know they were true.

CARL (spoken):

What kinda things?

MOLLY (spoken):

A photo Sam took as we rode the bus into Rino.

We were all alone, just us.

It’s something no one would know!

And the Starfish at Montego Bay.

Look, she said that Sam knows who killed him.

That he was set up, murdered.

CARL (spoken):

This is getting deranged, you're going off the deep end here.

MOLLY (spoken):

She had a name, an address, a complete ID!

SAM (spoken):

Good, Molly, good.

MOLLY (spoken):

Willie Lopez, 321 Prospect Place, Apartment 4D.

She said Sam wants me to go to the police.

CARL (spoken):

The police?

Molly- Jesus, what are you gonna tell them?

Some storefront psychic’s been getting messages from the dead?

SAM (spoken):

Carl, I know, I know it sounds crazy, but you’ve gotta trust her. (M: Suspend my disbelief)

CARL (spoken)

Stop, stop it, this is sick, it’s really sick

(M: Suspend my disbelief)

This woman’s a joke, look at you, you’ve gotta let go!

(M: Suspend my disbelief)

CARL:

When it’s over it’s over

(M: I know you're here)

None of it’s real

(M: It must be you)

You’ve got to leave

(M: I don’t wanna feel)

It’s part of the deal

(M: I know that it's real)

CARL (spoken):

Look if it makes you feel any better,

I’ll go check it out, OK?

MOLLY (spoken):

Really, Carl? Thank you, I appreciate that,

But I am going to the police.

CARL (spoken):

Nah, I wouldn’t do that, not just yet.

I’ll call you tomorrow, I promise.

MOLLY (spoken):

I’m gonna do this, Carl.

CARL:

I don’t believe it, it’s so sad.

Where are the good times we once had?

Such a high that we were on,

I can’t believe that it’s all gone.

How could this happen? We were friends.

Thought we had something that never ends,

We’ll get over it somehow.

All we’ve got is here and now.

SAM and MOLLY:

Here right now, (C: It was a misunderstanding,)

Here right now,

Here right now, (C: It was a misunderstanding.) Here right now.

SAM (spoken):

Be careful, Carl. This guy’s dangerous.

WILLIE (spoken):

Carl, what you doing here?

CARL (spoken):

Who you been talking to?

WILLIE (spoken)

Talking to? Estas loco, hombre? What the hell do you mean?

CARL (spoken):

Some fortune teller woman knows all about you.

Everything. Where’s she getting it from, huh?

SAM (spoken):

Carl?

WILLIE (spoken):

I ain't said a word to anybody.

CARL (spoken):

She knows your name, godammit. She knows where you live!

WILLIE (spoken):

A lot of women know where I live.

CARL (spoken):

This isn’t a joke, man. She knows about the money!

SAM (spoken):

You bastard!

CARL (spoken):

Now I want you to find this bitch, whoever she is.

And you just, look you just get rid of her OK?

I’ve got 10 million dollars stuck in that goddamn computer.

If I don’t get those codes and that money’s not transferred soon

I’m dead, we’re both dead.

These are big drug dealers.

WILLIE (spoken):

Why don’t you tell them that you only loan the money on the 1st of the month?

CARL (spoken):

You don’t screw with them, man.

They’ll take us down like that.

What is wrong with you, is everything a joke?

You killed a man!

I mean what the hell didn’t you understand, Willie?

You were supposed to steal his wallet, you killed a man! (S: I had a life)

Oh, was that a joke?

WILLIE (spoken):

I did you a favour, man! (S: I had it all)

(WILLIE and CARL arguing in the background)

SAM:

From such a height, but so far to fall.

You took all I had, torn apart at the seams.

You’ve taken from me everything I see,

You’ve stolen the dreams.

I had a life, I had it all.

From such a height, so far to fall!

You took all I had!

Torn apart at the seams.

You’ve taken from me everything I see,

You’ve stolen my dreams!

I had a life,

(M: If there is anything more I can do)

I had it all.

(M: I’ll do it and find my way back to you)

From such a height,

(M: Suspend my disbelief)

It's so far to fall.

I gave you all that I had,

(M: If there's even one thing left to try)

Torn apart at the seams.

(M: I don’t even need to know why)

You’ve taken from me and forsaken me and stolen my dreams (M: Suspend my disbelief!)

CARL:

Yes, we’re just playing a numbers game.

Every second the numbers change.

This is what I live to feel,

It’s the beauty of the deal.

This is the essence of high finance.

So many steps when you do this dance.

This is always such a rush,

Making millions with one touch.

New York, New York, New York. (ENSEMBLE: New York!)

The city that knows everything.

Where and when, who and what, (ENSEMBLE: New York!)

And which and why and how.

New York, it’ll give you everything. (ENSEMBLE: New York!)

Think it, dream it, hey you got it

Here right now. (ENSEMBLE: Here right now!)

CARL (spoken):

Tony, this is Carl, I’ve got the codes, I’m all set.

Hey, we’re fine, everything’s fine, you just tell me what you want me to do.

• Artist:Ghost (musical)